S.A.D..

i haz a S.A.D. Winter puts my mind in a little hole, where i want to hide. I've been laying around all day and no amount of inspiration seems to be working. I'm in bed posting from my phone. I've eaten my protein and drank my water. have not exercised. i just am tired.wish i could sleep for days.

holidaze

Christmas eve and Christmas I gave myself a little break and at a few candies, some tortilla chips, some crackers and stuff. On Christmas day I had to work and I'd spent the morning opening presents and all that with the kids and not eating much. So by the time I got to work at 2 I was ready to eat the paint off the walls. Luckily people had brought in food and I did not have to resort to that, but I ate a huge portion of mashed potatoes. Today I've been very depressed and PMS-y and feeling the post-holiday let down. Been crying on and off, and eating the hell outta my feelings. Tomorrow is another day. I am hoping to take the kids to the grandparents and spend a few hours, then X has a friend's birthday party tomorrow evening.
I ordered Just Dance 4 since M got a PS3 game bundle with the move stuff included. I haven't had time/inclination/weather/shoes to go running again.

Day 5

Long, long, horrible, terribad day at work. I mean, I rocked it, don't get it twisted. But it was a really jacked up day. Lunch was my coworker and me trading off for two or three bites here and there (I had leftover chicken and roasted veggies). That's how busy we were. But I didn't have any of the sweets floating around at work! I did have an Ale-8 my sweet coworker Chris had given me last weekend. I put it in the refrigerator when she gave it to me and found it today. I REGRET NOTHING. It was so good.
E made vaca frita for dinner, along with Brussels sprouts topped with bacon. YUM. Didn't do great with water today but I did ok. Tomorrow will be a big test of resolve. I'll be surrounded with treeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaats. And I'mma eat some, for real. But not stuff myself. I'm also going to be making pecan pie and some cookies and things to take to the family for Christmas.

Day 4

Not a bad day. I did have 3 peanut butter balls, but I didn't have any cookies, bread pudding, candy, or pumpkin roll. Christmas at work is a minefield of deliciousness. Lunch was a gigantic salad with roast turkey.  Eric made chicken tenders (homemade) and roasted veggies for dinner. He also made mac & cheese but I didn't have any of that, of course. Got chastised by the charge nurse (who reads my blog) for running in those boots. Oopsie! Won't do that again! Drank my water LIKE A BOSS all day. Got a good night's sleep last night, but probably won't tonight. Tomorrow is work 12 hours, come home and WRAP ALL THE THINGS.

temptation

Here at work this morning--so it begins. I didn't eat before I left the house, had designs on getting here and having some yogurt and turkey. Here comes my friend with a sack of sausage & egg biscuits. Ok, so I had one. I ate a peanut butter ball, too. They were both yummy. I did indulge, but I also ate them slowly and delberately, deciding that if I was going to have them I'd really enjoy them and make up for the sugar and biscuit with my lunch and dinner. I'm also not even a little bit interested in the cookies and candies in the breakroom. I brought a huge salad today, and leftover turkey, and yogurt. I've kept my water tumbler close by and filled it up several times. OH! I got on the scale here at work this morning. 177. Was 181 last week. Fluke? Water? I am just gonna take it and run!

day 3

My ass is draggin', y'all. I've been up since 4 am, when I woke with a start and couldn't get back to sleep. Stoopid apocalypse. Did OK today. Eggs and sausage, one tsp sugar in my coffee, salad with leftover roast turkey for lunch, beef chili for dinner. Did just OK with water today. My daughter came over today and baked goodies for her coworkers (she was right here in town and I wanted to visit with her) and I wasn't even tempted. So weird.
I've packed my lunch for tomorrow and I'm off to bed. Thinking about weighing in tomorrow at work.

day 2 wrap up

Another very good day. Satisfied my sweet tooth by mixing some cocoa powder and peppermint extract plus one TBSP sugar with my coffee this morning. Ate breakfast (eggs and all-beef sausage), big salad and yogurt for lunch, roast turkey with oven roasted broccoli and cauliflower for dinner. I ate a lot of that turkey. It was soo good. Lots of leftovers to add to tomorrow's salad, too. I drank lots of water today, too. Had a wine spritzer and a dirty shirley this evening with Fresca. Baby steps, y'all. Quitting booze is going to be the hardest part of this whole thing, I'm sure. I do love a bedtime cocktail.
I did about 20 mins of yoga but had to stop to pick up M from school. It was too rainy, windy, and cold to run.
Tomorrow is all about getting ready for Christmas and getting ready for the weekend. I work 12's every weekend and usually end up eating crap at work because I don't prepare. Not anymore! I am going to the grocery store tomorrow and loading up on all the good stuff I need to eat right at work.
Y'all gonna think I'm nuts (that's ok) but I swear my belly is not as bloaty and weird as it was just a couple of days ago. It's still big. I still look 6 months pregnant when I'm not sucking it in, but idk, it's like....less bloated and hard(?) I guess?
The boys and I did a craft while the turkey was in the oven and that was fun. They had been driving me nuts and I thought "we should make use of that huge box of craft stuff". They made paper bag reindeer.
Tomorrow is the last day of school before winter break. Hopefully we can keep the kids on some semblance of a schedule during the break. E has to work so that will help.
I realize I have virtually no audience here and that is just fine wit me. I'm keeping track of things and using a conversational style works best for me.
so that's day 2. Gooooo, me!