day 2 wrap up

Another very good day. Satisfied my sweet tooth by mixing some cocoa powder and peppermint extract plus one TBSP sugar with my coffee this morning. Ate breakfast (eggs and all-beef sausage), big salad and yogurt for lunch, roast turkey with oven roasted broccoli and cauliflower for dinner. I ate a lot of that turkey. It was soo good. Lots of leftovers to add to tomorrow's salad, too. I drank lots of water today, too. Had a wine spritzer and a dirty shirley this evening with Fresca. Baby steps, y'all. Quitting booze is going to be the hardest part of this whole thing, I'm sure. I do love a bedtime cocktail.
I did about 20 mins of yoga but had to stop to pick up M from school. It was too rainy, windy, and cold to run.
Tomorrow is all about getting ready for Christmas and getting ready for the weekend. I work 12's every weekend and usually end up eating crap at work because I don't prepare. Not anymore! I am going to the grocery store tomorrow and loading up on all the good stuff I need to eat right at work.
Y'all gonna think I'm nuts (that's ok) but I swear my belly is not as bloaty and weird as it was just a couple of days ago. It's still big. I still look 6 months pregnant when I'm not sucking it in, but idk, it's like....less bloated and hard(?) I guess?
The boys and I did a craft while the turkey was in the oven and that was fun. They had been driving me nuts and I thought "we should make use of that huge box of craft stuff". They made paper bag reindeer.
Tomorrow is the last day of school before winter break. Hopefully we can keep the kids on some semblance of a schedule during the break. E has to work so that will help.
I realize I have virtually no audience here and that is just fine wit me. I'm keeping track of things and using a conversational style works best for me.
so that's day 2. Gooooo, me!

Yoga day 1

Nothing like yoga to make you realize how out of shape you are (and how bad your carpet needs cleaning and deodorizing omg)! Xander turned out to be a crap-tacular yoga coach, running around and being a butt and trying to climb on me while I did the poses and continually asking "Why can't we watch Charlie Brown Christmas instead of this?" Oh, well. I guess yoga will be something I do while he's at preschool or otherwise occupied. At least there's one workout he likes so far (running).
No C25K for us today--it's so windy my skinny little boy would blow away, even if it wasn't raining. I'm barely exaggerating, it really is crazy windy.
OK, so yoga. I like it! I have many friends who have been doing yoga and/or pilates for years and have great results and love it. So yoga is here to stay, even though I have to modify some of the poses right now due to my out-of-shaped-ness.
The holidays are going to be difficult, what with all of the delicious food all over the place and wine flowing and such as. I'll probably give myself a break on Christmas Eve and NYE, not gonna lie. Not a free for all binge-fest, but a bit of a break.
I've wrapped exactly one present, and that was for the pre-school gift exchange this morning. And I wrapped it...this morning. I found the present I'd lost today! YAY! Now to make a huge list of things to do and things to buy. I work all weekend so tomorrow is the day to get it all done. Christmas Eve is spent at MIL's with the family--playing games, eating yummy food, and generally being merry. I have to work Christmas day from 2pm-9pm (booo!) but that should be fun, too. I plan to bring jalapeno popper dip for that feast, and maybe spinach artichoke dip, too.
Tonight I'm roasting a turkey breast awwww yeeeeeeeeaaaahh.

"before" pic

I guess now is as good a time as any to post a "before" picture or whatever. My son took this last Friday at the movies. Just hanging out with Gandalf, nbd.

I weighed in at 181 at work the next day.

I am cranky and whiny this morning and have a headache. Might be the carb detox flu I've read about? I feel overwhelmed at all the crap I have to do today and tomorrow like last minute shopping and cooking and stupid present wrapping. I'm the world's worst present wrapper. Maybe Eric can do that part. I've lost a Christmas present, which really sucks. I have lots of housework to do, too. Wheee! It's pouring rain again, so no C25K today. Hulu has beginner yoga, which Xander and I are going to try today after preschool.

Couch to 5K

I downloaded a C25K app on the weekend and wanted to start it on Monday. Monday it poured rain all day AND I had a terrible headache most of the day. So that no work. Yesterday I didn't get around to it.
Finally today Xander and I got off our butts and did the first workout. Well, most of it. I had to skip the last 2 intervals because I wanted to die and didn't want to vomit in the middle of my quaint little street in front of all my neighbors. It is .85 miles from my door to the end of the street and back again, so that's what we did. The last intervals I just walked. I thought maybe Xander would hinder my progress but it was just the opposite. He was an enthusiastic partner, throwing out lots of encouragement and praise. "We're doing great, aren't we, Mommy? Running is so fun, right? Look there's the stop sign, we made it, we are great runners!" My own personal little cheerleader. It's a 3x/week program and I work all weekend so I guess we'll do it again tomorrow and Friday. Next time I will dress more appropriately. Today I just wanted to get that first step out the door out of the way before I lost my nerve and decided that being fat and unhealthy is fine, let's make cookies! So I was wearing jeans and sweatshirt and these comfy cloth boots that might as well be house shoes. Yeah. So tomorrow we'll wear sneakers and workout duds.

accountability check in

Got up an hour early and exercised. I guess that's what I was doing. There are so many exercise programs and moves and stuff online that it's overwhelming. I guess I will go through some today and make a plan instead of random flailing and jumping jacks. I also drank my water. Now I'm having coffee with fat free half & half, no sugar. I'm not swearing off sugar entirely, at least not right now. But I can't help thinking that starting my day with a huge dose of sugar every day just can't be good for me. And as for the coffee,well, I need that to live,sooo...
Just for reference, this is me. I'm at my highest weight ever, including the day before I delivered any of my babies. (181 pounds)

I don't think I look horrible or anything. I don't think weight is an indicator of health, either. When I was at my lowest weight I was the most unhealthy I've ever been. Unhappiest, too. I think my goal here, more than a number on a scale, is just simply feeling better. I feel like a lump of crap most days and that has nothing to do with my weight and everything to do with how I'm fueling my body (hint: not very well!) and how much I move (not very much). Weight is secondary and I'm not gonna get bogged down in it. Matter of fact, I'm not going to weigh but once a month and only because I just have to know.
So we talked about sugar a little bit, and coffee (you can't have it, stop asking). I don't know when I will be able to part with wine. I have a glass of wine every night. Maybe I won't have to part with wine? I've read that wine is good for you in some ways, in moderation. But yeah, sugar is a problem, along with wheat and most other grains.
Goals for today: no wheat, no mindless sugar consumption,research beginner at-home exercise